A Renaissance Within

And some delightful paradoxes

There’s a wonderful quote, attributed to Henry J. Kaiser –

“When your work speaks for itself, don’t interrupt.”

I don’t know in what context the famous industrialist said that, but I generally like the advice. I also can’t completely follow it.

Someone else said, “Writing about music is like dancing about architecture.” Seems that’s been attributed to a number of notables, its origin unclear.

I ponder these quotes as I find they present certain paradoxes. Artists have to say something about their art, usually, even if it’s minimal. “Here’s a song I wrote last week,” actually gives an audience a lot of context. From that we know we’re going to hear a new song, and an original song, by the singer. So naturally we then perceive it differently than we might if the singer simply started in playing the song cold.

Then you have artist statements, which can present a resounding rejection of Mr. Kaiser’s advice, as illustrated by one of my favorite interweb properties, the Instant Artist Statement Bollocks Generator. (Hours of fun, that!)

And I can see dancing about architecture. Surely, why not? Dance about anything, I dance about frogs. I will swim about poetry this morning.

This last year or two, or four or five – the hazy continuum of societal madness we surf, trying not to lose our own minds – I’ve been on a prolific creative roll as a songwriter and home record producer. As I’ve mentioned before, part of it is therapy, for lack of a better word, processing it all, and trying to keep my head and heart right. And I have become quite free with my words – free associating, as they call it in Therapylandia – trusting instinct with curiosity to learn what’s going on between my ears.

In the course of these adventures, I started calling some of my songs Beet Poetry, in an obvious nod to bongos and the Beat Generation, and vegetables.

One of my favorites from this batch is Me And The Little This Is Fine Fire Doggie

Really fine therapy, that was, and I’ve been grateful to learn from some friends that it provided them too with some soothing medicine.

So looking back on recent years, I’ve made more new original song recordings than I ever expected or planned to. Paradoxes upon paradoxes, these interesting times provide a wealth of inspiration, though I would prefer a stable, rational society. Travel and friends and work and family and conversations and births and deaths all in, I seem to be inspired generally, these days. And I have this new song I’ll publish this weekend, which is a celebration of all of that.

There’s another quote I remember from childhood, “The world is as you see it.” It’s from a famous Indian guru, whose name escapes me, though I’m pretty sure the idea has been passed down for millennia. It’s another imperfect but useful thought, and I work with it. Since we are each a perceiver of the world, the world exists within each of us, and therefor how we perceive it is how it is. And extending from that, those around us may tend to pick up our vibes and see things similarly — I mean, if you’re around people who are miserable, that can tend to rub off, and same if you’re around happy healthy creative joyful generous people. So a gift we can offer others is to try and be well and happy ourselves.

The Vogons, brilliant invention of Douglas Adams in The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, are not happy beings. They are miserable, and they would prefer it if you are as well. I liked it best when they were safely ensconced in that hilarious work of fiction, but somehow, apparently, they have leaped out of the book and were put in charge of our federal government. This too shall actually pass, and I address the matter directly, in my new song!

Let us dance about architecture and eels, celebrating life, the universe and everything, standing on the desks, my Captains, and willing a Renaissance to be.

Yours fondly,

Eric Din
Berkeley Cat Records

reposted from my Substack

Exile On FB Street

Peculiar end to my Facebook saga:  After trying unsuccessfully to quit, numerous times over the years since 2007, I was unceremoniously banished on December 24, 2024. They won’t tell me why other than that they can’t confirm my identity. Well, that’s a chuckle, because, I can’t, really, either!  Who am I?  OK, well I mostly know. Eric Din. Eric Roy Dinwiddie. Same same.

But FB. I could go further with the effort to get back in, but nah. I wasted some time there, as one does. It’s a time-wasting engine, designed to suck your energy oh and yes they are ruining society in myriad ways. Bye bye. So the 1500 or so people who I was friends with there, they can still find me if they want to, and anyway FB wasn’t showing most of them my posts anymore, which was frustrating.  If I shared a cat photo it would get all sorts of likes and loves and awwws, but post a new song and like, two, three people respond. I get it, I prefer cats too. But how much is indifference from my pals, and how much is FB simply not showing the Bandcamp or other external links to them?  No way to know, and weeds grow in the mind.

I have less weeds in the absence of all that.

Twitter, I quit that venue the day whatshisbutt took over and called it “X,” I mean, come on, the worst rebrand since New Coke, and as much a failure.  Everyone should quit but they won’t cos I don’t know why.  I guess the more followers one has there, the harder to leave, and I get that.

So now this blog is a tree falling in the woods.  I wonder if anyone sees it.  I could look at the stats but I don’t care that much.  I’ve become indifferent to indifference.  I feel at peace with myself and my work and my art and my cats and the earth.

Last year saw some monumental disappointments, near and far from me.  My longtime friend and more recent career coach died by his own hand, a little more than one year ago, and that’s still very hard for me to even comprehend.  His choice, he rests in peace, no judgement here, but I do wish he had chosen to stay.  Then the Nov. 5 debacle to end all debacles.  And right now not one but two of my dear old friends are dealing with cancer, and I pray for their victories and health.

What does it all add up to here for me on this Thursday morning with a little welcome rain approaching this weekend?  Gratitude.  For this moment and all the moments.  For all the moments with each of the aforementioned friends, which I remember so vividly.  I have in this life tried to spend my time with people who savor life and music and art and tend to treat themselves and others with love and respect.  And the mind in its vastness can hold so many memories and some in startling detail.

60, I’ll be 60 soon.  With some amount of surprise, I now feel that’s an accomplishment in itself.  I like the number, I like the age, so much more than I had earlier expected to, somehow.  I keep my memories with me, they are wealth.  Even the hard ones, all gifts.  And in some contrast to the state of the world, my own life has been full of luck and good work and good play and wonder and joy over these recent years.  We never know when something will go awry and I am grateful for every good moment.

This song, which went live in the streaming worldly world today, was a nice step in my journey, dealing with some of the above.

A Journal Entry Of Sorts

I do the same thing over and over again expecting different results. Some have called this the definition of insanity but I prefer to see it as dedication.

Now then, making records. Berkeley Cat Records has a slogan – a tag line, if you will –

We’re from Berkeley. We are cats. We make records.

And it’s… TRUE!!

By gosh we do this.

I have some webby updatings to do, on this and a few other webbysites.  To bring my archive up-to-date. Been rather prolific, this year, and I’m pleased with my output. Each track is unique and different, so in this regard I guess I lied earlier. I do the same thing, that is, I get up (early, wow, very early these days) and make Peet’s coffee (various blends, current fave is Big Bang, no they don’t pay me to say that, it’s a Berkeley thing), and some days, some mornings, the light bulb over me head says, hey, here’s a track or a song idea! And I go there. Expecting what? Why, Petunia, I just don’t know.

Trying times, trying times, what a cliché that becomes. 2024, what the FUCK?! OK damn, my great friend and confidante, my career counselor and living Buddha Garden rock star beautiful human being Luke Kreinberg, died by suicide earlier in the year. It hardly feels real and if I start in talking about it I’ll write a novel, so let’s call that a headline. Grief sets in long and slow as comprehension of this slowly forms in my dumbfounded and stunned heart and mind.

Politics, another headline, shall we?   Biden, the drama, then Kamala, the campaign! The energy, the enthusiasm, the embrace of good values, decency and the rule of law, the rejection of all that is horrible, and then.. The most staggering debacle. It tests my optimism.

Optimism. I have lived most of my life with an intentional, deliberate optimism. Even in difficult times, in my personal life or career or through difficult events in the world around me I have chosen through and through to be optimistic. Part of it is calculated. I’ve found that pessimism can lead to the expected (bad) results and optimism can seem to help to lead to good outcomes. You get the result you imagine, to some degree. It’s not magic or hocus pocus, I think the current popular word for it is intention, setting your intention.

This year, yeah, it’s been tested a bit, this willful optimism of mine.  And becoming aware of that, becoming conscious of this inner struggle, certainly informed some of my songwriting and creative efforts.

A month after Luke’s passing, I went to see a psychotherapist. Private, expensive, several sessions, somewhat helpful. Smart fellow, wise and doubtlessly expert in his field. Younger than me, by at least ten years. After the 3rd visit I thanked him and canceled. You know, making records costs a bit, too. And I found, that the process involved in telling this gentleman, this professional, my stories and trying to understand myself a little better, is not wholly different from my process in writing and recording my own songs. Things are revealed, things I like and sometimes things that surprise or even disappoint me. In short it helps me work on myself, to hopefully become a better person. Well, funny thing – I even at one point some months ago said I was done making records for a while. Ha! That didn’t fly, so, well, I decided I can afford one or the other – record-making or therapy.

To become a better person. Now that is a worthy goal. And it’s one worth saying out loud at this time in our world, I believe.  Because there seems to be, among our fellow man, an embrace of values which are indecent. And I chose every word in that sentence. Our fellow man. Yes, also in women and in humankind more generally, but in men, I speak of men, men who have lost their sense of honor. Who have somehow been influenced, or brainwashed, if you prefer, to celebrate and reward simply the worst possible traits men can have. That is a mistake, and a dire one, and I doubt any good will come of it.

Meanwhile nature bats last, and she’s at bat. Instead of focusing our considerable human genius on dealing with the climate crisis intelligently, with the sort of organized focus which landed men on the moon, the human race is instead fighting wars over territory, power, religion, oil, water and vengeance, dumping more carbon into the atmosphere than ever before.

So how’s my willful optimism doing? Well, surprisingly ok. Because after all, it is willful.  What am I doing, with my time? Well, continuing to make art, for one thing. NOT making “art” with generative AI (I laugh out loud as I write this), and striving to be the best version I can imagine of myself. And I know, I know without doubt, that my friends and colleagues, and untold millions of good people whom I don’t know personally, are similarly striving. And THAT realization changes my optimism from willful, to easy and natural.

Our capacity for self-invention is considerable. And that’s some good news.